For the most part it's pretty cool, I get to go around flirting with boys which is a good thing and I get to do the whole casual thing (LIKE THAT EVER HAPPENS LOL).
What gets to me though are these moments where it feels like I have some sort of gaping empty hole in my soul or when I feel like getting all douched up and talk about the abstract philosophical ideals of Russian intellectuals and how it pertains to current social structures and just have no one that would get it.
I just want to feel that connection with some other miserable soul on this massive blue planet. So far no one I've met since my break up has cut it.
Where is my collection of lovers?
I swear that was my new years resolution.
Collect as many boys I can.
Get myself a nice boy who's all into painting, one with a beard, one with an extensive comic book collection who I can argue about the physics and logic of the DC verse with, one chef, one who's up in the event managing biznezz and would sneak me into awesome shows, a bartender, and well you get it.
BUT MY LIFE IS PATHETIC AND I STILL NEED TO GET OUT OF THIS RUT OF DEPRESSION AND COMPLETE UTTER DEMOTIVATION I AM IN. I HATE EVERYTHING
NO ONE EVER MENTION THIS POST TO ME AFTER THIS POINT IN TIME EVER
yeah being single sure can be super lonesome.
ReplyDeletebut once you're over that phase, it would be smooth sailing from there on.
maybe just a little bump here and there with occasional thunderstorm and stuffs. :D